Why I cant cl0se my eyes???

why i kept thinking bout him???
everytime he c0me in my mind, i keep crying...
kenape aku jd lemah cmni...
lmah sgt3...

Aku jd fragile ble melibatkn die..
npe????
sush sgt ke nk lpekan dy???
aku dh pnat menangis but hten I cant st0p crying 0ver him...
pls....
sum0ne help me 0ut 0f diz....

I cant think anym0re...
t0l0ng la s0meb0dy...
figure it out...
cmne aku nk buat ni...
nk td0 xbleh...
nk st0p thinking b0ut him pn xbleh...
aku dh jd nightmare dy yang pling dashyat....i think....
truk kn aku ni...

msti dy fikir aku ni kjam sbb delete dy dri frenlist aku...
tp even th0usands time pn aku delete dy dri frenlist aku...
aku xpnah pn keluarkan dy dari ati aku even 0nce...
everything happened here, he the 0ne that c0me in my mind,
either it is a g00d thing 0r bad 0ne...

Aku xkan pnah lpekan dy...
n0t even 0nce...
Aku xkan pernah brhnti menangis everytime he c0me in my mind...
Ya Allah, tlg la aku...
aku xkuat lg tuk sme ni...
bantu la aku Ya allah...=(